Rsy <arxwt @weird_hell@cybre.space

Hi! I'm Ray. I was born "Robert Mock" and still use that name with some folks. You are welcome to use either name, though I mostly use "Ray" around here.

I am agendered, nonbinary. Please use they/them pronouns when referring to me. Pansexual, but those thoughts will mostly be relegated to my After Dark account - message me if you would like a link.

I make videogames! I will mostly talk about feelings and shitpost here, though. Check out @bowlercaptain if that's more your speed.

Hmmmmmmmm I wake up, open masto, and recognize an old still-loaded toot marked... 6h ago. Hm. I think perchance my sleep ended a tad early.

Like I feel like solving the graceful tree conjecture is a basic-ish algorithm question.

Given just the nodes containing the first item, the last item, some target item, and the assumption that the current tree is graceful, I bet you could swap things around so the new amended tree is graceful. Might require shifting every number or every number below/above your target by one, but that would preserve all the differences, so.

Should give this a shot on paper tomorrow.

Me, reading over this contract and noticing all the little ways I am being or could be screwed over.

This, of course, also happens to the player, leaving their member about and dangerous on the next run.

The ultimate goal of the game, though this may not be obvious at first, is to find letters scattered around the map, and then read them aloud in front of a member of pain (without getting killed by it... somehow) which 'proves' the letter, and removes a slot for a member pf pain to spawn. (I bet this means that the bigger, tougher members spawn first now, because game progression. Ah well.)

You wander around a map, collecting points of interest by 'scanning' them with binoculars - and presumably picking up resources too, though I never got to.

Various zombies and traditional monsters are also on the map, and will try to chase you down like normal. However, everything that dies sooner or later becomes a "member of pain" - a far more eldritch resurrection of the body, done with no respect for the original geometry/anatomy. Smudge-tooled goop creatures.

Shputouts to my brain for having a pretty cool idea for a horror/survival game but introducing me to it in a nightmare.

Oops, shouldn't have sent that at 4am. But fuck it! Got it sent. Needed to do that. That's almost everything I was responsible for today.

Also I already exercised which means I can't go exercise

I mean I guess props to me for wanting to? But HECK.

Now my roommate is running d&d campaigns onall three of their days off

Meaning that the audio space in our living room is unavailable and also I don't have the privacy to do either of the things that I need privacy for

I am antsy and potentially bored

Wikia, now known as Fandom, founded by *Jimmy Whales*?!?!

Okay either he'd be ashamed of the advertising shitfest it's become today or I'm ashamed of him.

Apparently an entire forgin' hunk of ham is really cheap
by the pound it was 1/6.4 the price compared to sliced deli meat. Still precooked and way superior imo. Definitely more annoying to try to carve up, but damn it if I don't have HAM.

Do you ever just haAaAaAm

Solar eclipse: you gotta travel to like one stripe of land in ohio if you wanna see me
lunar eclipse: uhhhhhhh this half

blog update: itch is happy to host Devlogs for you, but they're for a particular game. Not 100% a ideal vessel in which to join the blogosphere.

Hey! Blog friends! Recommendations? Is the answer 'get some hosting and run a wordpress site'?

Tried milk kefir for the first time tonight.

kefir review: It tastes like fuckin' yogurt.

That's the entire review. Is that a good thing? Well, do you want to drink yogurt? I do, but I like yogurt. There's a reason they sell this stuff in fruit flavors, for the same reason they sell yogurt in fruit flavors. It's milky but it's sour as fuck

Hm. Felt an urge to not talk to that person, which is concerning. I say to myself I want to be alone with my thoughts so I can write. I think I felt the pull of another wasted evening, given what the talking came along with.
but the act of not wanting to talk to someone makes me suspicious - that's what depression do to you, and it's good at disguise checks

I'm watching you, me!

you can draw a straight line along the cheeriness axis from The Mountain Goats through Tally Hall to They Might Be Giants
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CHANGE MY MIND

Hambone so thicc my seatbelt light blinkin at me

In any case. The best I can do in this day is end it early. I woke up today afterthe sun went down, and that is too late. Too late when things are scheduled for the next two days, anyway.

Maybe the answer is to ape Neil Cicierega's style. Post jokes. Be entertaining. But if something is real and meaningful, hold onto it a bit longer. Let it stew for a bit and grow in size

But maybe that's rumination. Maybe that's how wallowing and stagnation is born.

But motion in these tiniest of bursts also leads to stagnation, I worry.