radioactive gender criminal @vantablack@cybre.space

i love this outfit!!!!!!!!!!

hello! i am now taking commissions for freelance video editing work

i have ten years of experience

if you've ever seen that "CYBERPUNK IS NOW" video, i'm the one who made that

you can view my portfolio at https://verticallyalignedcarbonnano.tube

boosts much appreciated for obvious reasons!!!

I spend way too much time on mastodon

I wonder why the fuck it takes me so long to get anything done, then I realize every task I complete is punctuated with at least forty minutes of shitposting

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https://cybre.space/media/dQpEem7fMTVRfMZwnco

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mKpsuGMeqHI

#meds taken

i don't know about how meth works, but i for sure haven't been able to replicate the feeling from the first time i had nicotine

that was a rush like no other

i remember being a little kid and publishing a youtube video, then setting up a runescape autoclicker to refresh the page all night

when i woke up in the morning i had like a thousand views

you can't do that kind of thing anymore lmao

that was my first taste

when i was in the 10th grade my science teacher told us that meth burns out the part of your brain that receives pleasure, so after the first time you do it you can never replicate that feeling again

i think having something go viral for the first time is kinda like that

when i was in high school and even college, seeing numbers go up was a huge rush. there was that facebook page i ran that had... well, i'd tell you how many likes it had, but it honestly doesn't fucking matter. some five-digit number, i can't be arsed to double-check

but after a while you get used to it and just stop giving a fuck lol

they just become numbers on a screen

i don't know if that change in perception is due to a change in my political beliefs over time, or just getting older and having more experience online, or what

but the main takeaway i'd like to give here is... uh... social media is a hell of drug!

(but drugs aren't always bad, it's how you use them that matters)

i don't know why i'm even thinking it would

it's only been out for about 24 hours and it already has a decent number of views and such

i just gotta wait for it to get picked up by the algorithm like that one review video i did lmao

if this video about this my chemical romance mystery that literally nobody else on youtube has talked about somehow flops and doesn't gain traction

i'm gonna go back to the drawing board

use my phone as a camera

and re-shoot the thing in good quality

i don't want it to get a lot of views just for the sake of it -- i want lotsa people to see it so we can solve the fucking mystery!!!

that's why i made the title all caps and gave it the clickbaitiest possible thumbnail lol

99.9% of the time if someone is estranged from their parents they have a fucking reason and that reason is good

if i ever get the chance to make a music video i'm gonna parody the video for blur's "coffee and tv"

it'll be mostly the same, a sentient milk carton with a missing person's face on the side walking around a city looking for said person

but the twist will be they don't wanna be found, and when the carton finds them they squash it with their foot or whatever

because i'm so fucking sick of the "estranged child reconciles with their parents because it was really just a misunderstanding and they actually love each other" trope

it's SO overdone

and so unrealistic

okay i at least managed to pull the knot over my head then take the dress off

i can just put that off for forever i guess

i love women's clothing

but i also fucking hate women's clothing

and it's on the back, of course, so it keeps getting tangled up with my fucking hair

the worst part is, i have to sit here in this tight-ass dress covered in sweat until i compose myself enough to try to undo the knot

i am SO FUCKING ANNOYED

i just walked to the weed store and back in the heat

and i just now got back, so i wanted take off this dress

but the fucking tie on the back is stuck in a knot, and it looks like if i try to undo it i'll break it entirely

god fucking damn it

this is the awesome black lace dress i got at goodwill for $5 recently

i hate everything

the character designs for the main characters date back even further, to this short animation film thingy one of the creators made in college called "children make their own cinema"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XfGD-62hFKk