cold & black & infinite @vantablack@cybre.space

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hello! i am now taking commissions for freelance video editing work

i have ten years of experience

if you've ever seen that "CYBERPUNK IS NOW" video, i'm the one who made that

you can view my portfolio at https://verticallyalignedcarbonnano.tube

boosts much appreciated for obvious reasons!!!

I spend way too much time on mastodon

I wonder why the fuck it takes me so long to get anything done, then I realize every task I complete is punctuated with at least forty minutes of shitposting

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https://cybre.space/media/dQpEem7fMTVRfMZwnco

hell is lighting a green screen

fuck yeah the green screen a sent me arrived this morning and i spent like four hours setting the lighting up and recorded that super secret awesome idea for a video i had and now i'm editing it 😁 😁 😁

two VERY good pieces of news in the mail!!!

first off, my old abusive boss who was refusing to send me my W-2 finally sent it after we sent him that piece of certified mail demanding it

and also the green screen a sent me is here!!!

yayyyyy!!!!!!

#meds taken

i live in sickness 🤢
i live in spinning 🌀
the whole wide world 🌎
is a carousel 🎠

ordered some pepper spray... it should be here tomorrow

i already have a tazer, but i'd be much more comfortable with something with a bit more range in case my parents come at me on the street or something lol

just so i have these written somewhere concrete outside of my laptop:

bury me in a black dress

with my black combat boots and black fishnets

and black lipstick and eyeliner and nailpolish

invite fedi people

don't invite my parents

play some music i would have enjoyed

make it a party, bring your own beer/bud

watch some of my videos

gonna give DD "durable power of attorney for health care" for me in case i die of covid or get hit by a bus or whatever so my parents don't get to bury me lmao

bangarang

at this point i wouldn't put it past them to just straight up fucking kidnap me if they see me in the street

so if i disappear suddenly... yeah

great now i'm afraid to leave the house at all ☹️ ☹️ ☹️

ugh they probably tracked me with that joint account

good thing i closed it

how do they know my location well enough to know the grocery store right next to here but NOT the house number????????? wtf

HOLY FUCKING SHIT

went to the grocery store RIGHT NEXT TO the apartment

was at checkout

manager dude walks over and says "excuse me" and i think, okay, they're maybe gonna hassle me because they think i stole something or whatever or maybe compliment me on my outfit

NOPE

says "are you [deadname]?"

i recoil in fear, and too shocked to say anything else, respond with "y... yes"

he says "someone was at this store trying to contact you, you fit the description she left us"

so i told him that's my evil ass mom and she's stalking me

and he was like "oh... okay"

jesus christ

they know like the area i live in

what the fuck

WHAT THE FUCK

THEY KNOW LIKE THE EXACT AREA I LIVE IN

WHAT THE FUCK

update: it had the exact plugin i was looking for but everything was for older versions of vegas lol

hell, even way before that i was using windows movie maker on the family computer as a little kid and making movies with my toys lmao

i'm extremely lucky i learned how to pirate shit in like the 7th grade, and was able to get my hands on a copy of sony vegas and start using it and making stuff that early on

then eventually took tv/video classes in high school

if your advice for people pirating your professional video editing software is "be a responsible adult and pay us every fucking month for it" it's only gonna make me wanna pirate that shit even harder

why is video editing so expensive to get into lmao

the software and plugin packs are all multiple hundreds of dollars

the "cheap" option for sony vegas, which is recommended on the official subreddit as an alternative to piracy for "responsible adults to save up and buy," is a fucking MONTHLY SUBSCRIPTION and it's THIRTY GODDAMN DOLLARS

thank fuck for piracy