A part of this is just that on Mastodon I'm Super popular and influential, while on Twitter I have some popular mutuals but I'm not personally popular; and I'm sure if I was twitter famous it'd be exhausting to post there too.

@shel I wanted to subtoot, but reply instead.

"Known from Mastodon" will be a thing soon, or "Known from the fediverse"

@shel I wonder how different it would feel to make a new account not attached to this one, in terms of popularity-stress..
sorry to hear you've been getting exhausted by it.

But also I just think like... people on Twitter have better social skills? Which is horribly rude and probably ableist to say like i'm on the spectrum i certainly Get having poor social skills but... it can be... really tiring to be so Patient all the time w/ ppl who don't understand what's inappropriate to share with me or what's like... just noise that i don't care about or want to hear.

i'm also a little less understanding about this cuz often the ppl doing this are if not 50% older than me then twice my age or older... so it's like... you had 40 years to acquire some social skills... come on...

@shel btw, thank you for explaining this to me some time ago, i take a lot more time & energy to read posts. and if i can't, i skip them.

@thornyonmain I don't wanna have to remake tho i like attention too much and have remade so many times like i just wanna stick with this one but have ppl understand if i say "i'm sad" i don't wanna hear about your history of abuse out of nowhere; and if i say "we gotta do something about bad stuff in the world!!" i don't wanna hear "well gOOD for you that you can handle the horrible weight that and aren't 110% crushed under body dysphoria 24/7 and unable to think through bad feelings"

@thornyonmain everyone here is so docile. Any call to action that isn't stress-free and easy comfort zone shit is taken as offensive.

@thornyonmain I've been asked by ppl to CW "jokes involving socially inappropriate behavior" from someone who then blocked me anyway...

it was in response to a joke where I was like "Job interview tip: Holler cuss words at your future boss and set the place on fire" or something absurd like that

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@bea @thornyonmain it's like... sometimes i see ppl make posts like "hi plz do this thing!!" but it's not response to the person who flubbed so like it becomes a federal issue cuz Everyone sees it and has An Opinion

and sometimes ppl reply to me instead of making a new post and i'm like why did u feel the need to tell this to me specifically

@bea @thornyonmain I don't want to cultivate a hostile sarcastic unapproachable persona. I like being genuine and kind... but... i also am someone who gets into fights with the government how am i supposed to be constantly calm and soft and dulled enough for everyone.

@thornyonmain @bea yeah!! Escapist!! Mastodon is an incredibly escapist environment!! I get taking a break but escaping all the time is suffocating. I *need* to engage with the material world. Shit is BAD out there and I'm not gonna pretend it isn't

@shel @thornyonmain that's like, extremely this corner of masto though right? i have to suspect that in other languages or instances with different subcultural origins it's less like this

@shel this ......... is probably why I don't really post any more i guess

even if i post something of no substance at all i find the reactions a bit much sometimes...

@bea On Twitter I'll *maybe* occasionally get some nazis in my mentions who i can ignore

on Mastodon everything i say becomes a federal fucking issue even if it's like, oh, I Used Telegram Today and everyone's fighting abt cybersecurity now.

@shel i only(?) have ~1230 followers on twitter and i had to disable notifications to not just get super anxious about using it.

@meena I have less than 200 twitter followers and i'm pretty sure 80% of them are bots or ppl following me to market themselves and try to get a follow back

@meena but i have nearly 1000 followers on mastodon; most of which are duplicates from different instances

@shel yeah it's been bloody exhausting here recently

that said for me it's been more on account of the proverbial shitflinging that happened over certain uh, features and i voiced my displeasure about it because it was doing my fucking head in https://icosahedron.website/@colon_three/100142881554970593