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tired: writing fan fiction because you love the source material so much and it's a way to connect to it long after you've finished the content
wired: writing fan fiction because canon SUCKS and needs to BURN

saw two people fighting about whether united states is a country or not in a forum about writing and reading fanfiction, of all things

*attraction that isn't physical ... because i can empathize with instant physical attraction to some degree

i've always been skeptical with stories where they experience instant attraction ... i thought it was just fiction being fiction (i.e. often unrealistic) lol but then i meet people who genuinely experience this and now i'm confused

wait do alloromantics experience romantic attraction to someone they've just met? i've only experienced that once in my life (and it wasn't with my gf either, with her it was purely physical at first)

this feels so ironic because were i not just talking about being very allosexual yesterday ... but then again i've been thinking about my supposed allosexuality a lot which is suspicious. do heteros think a lot about their heterosexuality? i bet not. questioning people, on the other hand-

probs something like alloflux or aceflux or something ... greysexual. graysexual. good thing gray ace is such a nice, flexible label.

yeah i think i'm not rly allo

is it an allo thing to sometimes not experience sexual attraction whatsoever (while still having libido) ... for years at a time ... THINKING

oh wait i might not be as allosexual as i thought i was? IDK IDK

because in hindsight this was me with my girlfriend. wouldn't call it love but i was already fucking gone from the first meeting ...

is "love at first sight" really just alloromantics being alloromantic

My father didn't die that long ago, but it still felt like it was such, such a long time ago, a decade even ... Not in a "I've moved on" way (do we ever?), but in a "I was ... such a young child when it happened" (no I wasn't actually).

Maybe because the "me" then and the "me" now is so, so different that the "me" back then felt like a really young child ... One of the fastest ways to grow up is to lose a parent, after all.

Not really sad/in a grieving mood, just ... Why does it feel like it happened when I was a child instead of my teens.

A guy and a girl stand next to each other and they're apparently a canon couple. Two guys angst over each other, declare their love publicly, KISS, GET ENGAGED, move in together, and they're "just friends". Just. LMAO.

LMAOOOOOO I CAN'T BELIEVE IT there are literally people who argue that Yuri!!! on Ice doesn't have a canon gay relationship 😭

They have angsty conversations about lovers, love, and sexuality. There is a whole-ass subplot about pining and ghosting. They are shown sleeping in the same bed. One character had a public declaration of love. There are references to real-world aspects surrounding gay people in figure skating. There is plenty of subtext. THEY KISSED. They proposed. THEY TALK ABOUT MARRYING EACH OTHER. THEIR FRIENDS CONGRATULATE THEM ON BEING ENGAGED. They move in together at the end ...

And there are still people who say "they're juts friends" ... I thought it was just a meme. I'm not even mad anymore I JUST CAN'T HELP BUT LAUGH LIKE WHAAAT HAHAHAHA.

i'm so gone for my girlfriend ... why am i so gone ... so proud to simp she deserves to be simped

honestly, the nice thing about atheism is that there is no greater being telling you to do shit like spreading dogma or shitting on people who don't believe in the same god. so why should we?

as an atheist myself i'm half convinced those internet (and sadly irl) atheists who go around shitting on believing/religious people for believing in fiction are just jealous that religious people tend to be happier than atheists. at least according to pew research, anyway.

Just installed Shinigami Eyes so that I can mark transphobic assholes as anti-trans. But how effective is it really? Saw a post on the trans subreddit that it has a lot of false flags.