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i cant find my last poast about it, so i’ll re-post:

if you have a dead mac laptop that just sits in a closet or box somewhere, send it over my way so i can tinker with it and, if it’s truly le dead, can be used as a donor for other computers

and if you’re in, like, the GO Transit area, and you have a bigger Mac that’s dead and wanna donate it to a trans woman who likes to take apart and fix computers, find me and send over a post (before getting the OK to dm me)

#introductions
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[i’m/we’re]
– 91yo trans af old hen, hatched in ’91
– Melungeon & white-coded
– living w/ semi-healed cPTSD & anti-D-managed clinical depression of >35yrs)
– undoc’d immigrant in a settler state
– child-survivor of *clinical* trans conversion therapy in the ’80s
– named plaintiff in MN Sup. Ct ruling that was first anywhere to confront trans folk’s access to washrooms (I lost, sry!)
– ND, on spectrum
– came up w/ stuff like “deadname”, “voicing”, “first/second puberty” & other shit maybe
– mum to Frida, My Amazing Calico
–do floral wifery on brownfields

AND
– music archivist & DJ
– film photog (DSLRs: too much 💲)
– retired bike msgnr, graphic artist & web designer
– committed to destroying whiteness
– communist (anarchism: 🆗)
– urbanist trained by uni & Black womanism
– ardent abt public spacing accessibility/equity, taking back neoliberally-privatized/stolen zones, decolonization & guerrilla removal of hostile architectures
– learning the Talmud, not yet Jewish

📌 pinning this just to be clear:

if you're a mufo reading this and you're seeing yourself needing to flee from the U.S. for whatever reason, there is always room for you in my home, so long as i have a home, even if things are tight

a reminder how, despite being Melungeon, i was born into whiteness & had bestowed upon me a conditional whiteness (irrespective how my surname was “imported” from Angola in 1619),

i’ve benefited substantially & substantively from being placed as white in most of the spaces i’ve navigated — even as there are other evident structural barriers i deal w/ as a neurodivergent queer trans woman w/o status in a settler-colonial nation where i live

it also makes me, in that original sin of the U.S., where i was born & raised, ipso facto a racist,

my own racism, inculcated upon me from an early age, is a thing i’ve been trying to demolish & also to thwart in my peers, pretty much every day for much of the last 30 or so years when i had the privilege (due to my whiteness) to choose to start thinking about & challenging those structures,

i’ll be working to dismantle this for the rest of my life, and i know i’ll never get there

last boosts:

kill all investing and abolish all investors

re-designating my front bottom to be my frussy

sometimes songs are so subtle and encompassing that you fail to pay attention to the time signature

me, only today realizing how Manhattan Skyline by a-ha is mostly a 3/4-time song, where only the first half of the chorus is in 4/4-time

which also explains why the 12'' single *starts* with that 4/4-part

and now i guess i know why

most of the mid ’90s stuff was packed with pure garbage, but i guess one could make a weak complaint that compilations from the 1980s were mostly garbage (and yes, a few, covering no new ground whatsoever, really were)

so *someone* out there stans ’90s pop music out there, and i can assure you they and i would probably butt heads all the time

this is to say i brought home a lot of promo CDs during my years of working at record stores, and sometimes i’d bring something home because there was one artist i liked with a song seemingly exclusive to a compilation or soundtrack, but it would turn out that the song was total crap along with the rest of the disc

me, looking thru my rando old CD compilations which were ripped back in 2005, but not added to the DJing library, because some of the crap is truly crap:

“oh look there’s Dead Eye Dick with that ‘she don’t eat meat but she sure likes the bone’” song which was terrible and which got way more airplay than it ever deserved”

Willem Dafriend

showered, medded, now just vibin”

i need to shower and go to sleep

there is definitely a possibility of seeing this reach 30 days of content

this is just for the years 1985, 1986 and 1987, bundled together… so far: