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you can't just put 50 blocked tickets on a kanban board and say you're agile*

*actually you can and that's in a nutshell why agile is shit

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I worry that there's two different ways to approach school:
* optimizing for learning
* optimizing for grades & test scores

and that we're going out of our way to force struggling students & schools to do the worse one.

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I try to end my days on a positive note which is why I always stay awake past midnight

hello! just setting things up / migrating from @octopus@cybre.space, many thanks to weirder.earth admins for the rapid approval πŸ™πŸ’•

applied for a fedi account at weirder.earth

could reasonably take longer for someone to review than cybre.space has until we go into read-only.

ethics/morals // 

been tending toward a moral(?) framework that emphasizes
* radical consent
* respecting autonomy
* epistemic humility

comes together into something like "a person is the ultimate authority on what is good for them. this cannot be known from the outside, so affirmative consent is needed before 'helping' them."

the individual components are all good things that people generally don't emphasize enough imo, but I'm feeling limitations, too.

friction points:
* sometimes, knowledge is possible. it's even possible to know things relevant to someone's situation that they do not.

* no one is truly autonomous; we are social and our extended intelligence includes other minds

* (consent) decisions can have nontrivial cognitive, emotional, and social costs. demanding them before acting externalizes that cost

I *do* want to:
- draw a salary
- do something useful/interesting
- interact with other people
- learn stuff

I *don't* want to
- feel like a lonely freak
- be responsible for shit I can't control
- wonder when they'll fire me this time
- constantly guard against social challenges

sleep apnea mouthpiece costs $3.2k, including a year's worth of followup visits

they last about 5 years?

about ~$60/month for the possibility of rest while sleeping

I've sort of made peace with the fact that I'm a useless, incapable, isolated, unemployed nothing

which is very bad for trying to muster the [something] to change any of it, but the alternative is soaking in despair

I need to call my insurance company, again, to ask for the form they assured me any insurance billing agency would know about & how to get (they don't) so I can start the process of maybe getting a sleep apnea mouthpiece in two months or whatever

depressing dreams // 

dreamed that I was repeating senior year (highschool) & that by around 3rd-4th quarter I had just… stopped doing any kind of homework, studying, showing up for tests. had trouble collecting food during lunch so that by the time I got to the next class (without having eaten, with awkward and heavy backpacks) there weren't any chairs left for me.

dreamed that I had taken a generic software job and was only able to work 6h a day (instead of 8) & told the boss something like, look, the social contract is broken & the written contract says you can fire me any time for no reason, I don't owe you any unwritten stuff like "basic human honesty". I have to work and corps only hire software devs for 40h/weeks and I can't do that, so I'm just going to work 30h/weeks until people catch on and fire me and then I'll do it again somewhere else.

also there was some mmorpg / wheel of time / ATLA shit going on

I should, uh, probably apply to an instance to move this account to

approximately none of the descriptions give any clear idea of what the position actually does ("analyze data" "provide insights" "use software" "execute pipelines") which doesn't help a great deal

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looking for jobs that would make more use of my mathematics background than just wrb development & there's a lot of "data scientist/engineer/analyst" type jobs, and even a pretty decent number of machine learning type jobs

which I know I could *learn* but I don't have any direct experience in

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promised I'd look at jobs today which is most of why I'm still in bed

thought that's been bugging me for a while // 

using "navel-gazing" as a pejorative exposes the speaker's ignorance

it's not an empty synonym for "worthless activity", there's a real practice that it refers to, done for real reasons by real people in real contexts.

My latest column for *Locus Magazine* is "Moneylike," about the relationship between money, liabilities and coercion:

locusmag.com/2022/09/cory-doct

For years, economics textbooks have included a "money story": once upon a time, we bartered, trading chickens for cows. This was hard. If the going rate is 8 chickens for a cow and you only need 6 chickens, how could the chicken farmer make change?

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the special frustration of doing morale-building exercises when you're clinically depressed

"I find humans in general to be exhausting and alienating. I can communicate and work with them reasonably well, but I'll never truly feel part of the team and sooner or later that matters."

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"oh, this two year gap? that's how long it took me to go through my savings from the previous two years of working. I'm pretty frugal so I had to send rent money to a lot of strangers on the internet to get through it all."

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