I have not felt this low in a long time. I just don't understand how someone can say they love you more than anything then treat you like trash. So much time and effort wasted. My life feels like a string of those instances though. Doing my best but not being good enough. I feel worthless.
So, I am feeling super depressed today for some reason. I think it is because this vertigo thing has been acting up the last few days... The thing which lost me my job. And neurologists are hard to see so I don't get to see one until December, unless I call every morning at 8am and see if there are cancellations.
I need to see if I can make a script that can just automatically florp your posts... And somehow send what you wrote to my brain.
Thanks for providing these counterpoints, it has definitely changed how I think about this topic. I've lost a lot of my fervor concerning anarcho-socialism over the last year or so. I'll have to set some time aside to resume my reading on the subject. When I was in grad school my Master's paper was going to be on the German Anarchist and socialist tradition, but I quit the program because it made me miserable.