Not long into lockdown, we got articles about "Zoom fatigue" and the negative effects of having to see yourself all the time in video meetings (to the point where videoconferencing apps added the option to turn the self-cam view off).

I'm wondering how that differs from a VTuber seeing their own model all the time.

I love my model. I made it myself with free software, and I'm very proud of that. But... should I stop looking at my own video feed during streams? Should I limit my exposure to my, uh, virtual "reflection" for any reason? Am I teaching myself bad habits?

Or is this actually positive? Is it helping me learn to be more comfortable with seeing "myself"? Will this help me with my meatspace life at all (in which I periodically grapple with anxiety and depression)?

I wonder if there are/will be any studies on self-monitoring through virtual avatars!

@fyda FWIW, I use my ability to see myself when vtubing (or even on video calls) to make sure I'm emoting properly.

Between the ND need to push my expressions so NT folks can read them, and my general stage anxiety, it helps to see my face when I'm on camera like that.

@danana_dread Oh, that sounds really helpful! I've always had trouble managing my own expressions (I've annoyed a few photographers because I _thought_ I was smiling but they said I wasn't). This is certainly a better take on self-viewing, thank you.

(VTuber calibration is its own separate affair... I'm at the point where I'm not worried my avatar is showing the wrong expression, but rather, I hope _I'm_ not making the wrong expression that it's then accurately reflecting, heh.)

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