Hello cybre.space, time for #introductions! :)
I'm a networking geek and researcher living in Berlin, currently working on a PhD in Computer Science. On a technical level, I like access networks such as WiFi and mobile networks, I like measurement and understanding performance, and I do low-level user-space programming in C. I sometimes talk about science, free software, and tech communities, among other things.
It’s a shame that the only decent command-line we have is the Linux/Unix ecosystem. There are reasons it is the way it is, esp. the fact that most hobbyist devs are programmers/engineers (way too few designers, writers, sensibility readers etc., & the precious ones we have get little respect).
But a cmdline could be all of:
- fully decolonised
& the fact that ours isn’t is taken to be an essential limitation of cmdlines…
Technologie und Wissen schaffen Verantwortung.
Die #Hackerinnenethik ist seit fast 40 Jahren unverändert, ich finde es wird Zeit für ein kleines Update.
Confessions of a bad immigrant
I think nobody will dispute it that, if you want to immigrate to another country, you should make an effort to be considerate of the local culture and sensibilities. It's a bit like a relationship: know what you're getting into before committing, be willing to respect their limits.
"Consideration" is such a slippery notion tho. I've been told to not gay kiss or poly kiss because it made people uncomfortable, it's a family environment, think of their feelings. I've seen Japanese homosexual ppl say they had to marry for procreation, for to do otherwise would be a tremendous lack of consideration to their parents, to whose tirelessl hard work they owe their bodies. I've been told not to wear makeup to work, because I had to be professional and respect German cultural norms. By a non-German. No German ever seemed bothered by early transition me wearing concealer, but somehow "being considerate of the local culture" seems to translate so easily to "don't make me uncomfortable by flaunting queerness".
In some countries, everyday cooking is full of spices, with a rich, appetising scent. When they immigrate, some locals will complain of that terrible greasy smell that gets everywhere. Maybe they'll refuse rent to ppl from those countries. In the country of origin the smell get everywhere too, but there it was just a fact of life, nobody paid any mind, nobody blamed their neighbours for it. In the host country, it's inconsiderate.
I imagine what it feels to those immigrants. Either resign yourself to eating what must feel like the most boring, cardboard nothing food every meal, day at day. Or fail to prove that you deserve to live in the rich country. Taint the reputation of all your countrypeople. Fail to show that you assimilated, get booted right back into whatever terrible conditions you were fleeing from. ("If it's so terrible there you can get by without the spices". Yes you can. But should you have to choose?)
I'm being roundabout, even here, afraid of being one of the bad ones. I'm lying, I don't have to imagine how they feel, I know. You _will_ be assimilated. When the choice is deportation or assimilation, well, resistance is futile.
But what really gets to me, what really gets to me, is not being allowed to express sadness about it. The taboo on criticising host country. "If you complain so much why do you want to live here."
I want to live here, and I want to complain so much, complain about things that make me sad about living here. Germany will be fine. I'm not going to change anything, I don't hold any power in our relationship, I have to be a model citizen or else. But I will grant myself the right to vent to the void how I really feel.
It's past 1am and I am crying, a lot. I'm crying about things that most Germans won't empathise with, things they'd frown upon on their neighbours. Things related to overwhelmingly negative opinions about third-world, non-EU immigrants in polls, looming under outwardly liberal attitudes and a generally respectful treatment. (Usually Most of the time.)
Hell, I want to cry about things that many Brazilians will see as our flaws and not empathise with, at least the upper classes, at least those who haven't spent a few years in the cold lands. I look at my poor, dirty, violent country, and I miss not a curated reel of the best parts, I miss the people, with all their very real issues.
I miss not being able to sleep at 2am, every week, because middle-aged ppl are singing painful love ballads on booze and an acoustic guitar in the specialty bar in front of my rented room. I'm not being facetious, I really miss it. Having my healthy sleep patterns disturbed by them made me smile. They were happy. They were _making happiness_ I had to work the next day, I woke worse, work was worse, fuck work, work doesn't matter, this is music, love, happiness, this matters. They understood that.
Music and love and happiness is holy, damn you all.
I miss not being able to sleep at 2am because my neighbours are having a loud party. I miss the knowledge that if I knocked on the door with a smile I'd be taken right in, a perfect stranger, even if I was too shy and dysphoric to act on that knowledge it comforted me.
I miss not being able to sleep at 2am because of the magnificent ppl coming down from the hills, the favelas, blasting downright pornographic earworms right to the face of polite middle-class society, hacked DIY sound systems shaking the security walls with maxxed-out bass. They are so right, polite middle class society is a grinding wheel running on blood, it more than deserves being blasted at 2am with cocks buried to the balls and dripping, all-consuming hungry pussies.
I curse this silence. I miss not being able to sleep at 2am because it's Carnaval and everybody is outside dancing and drinking and fucking one another for the pure, innocent shining reason of a body wanting another body.
And yes, I confess, I miss singing at 2am.
This twitter thread from the Caves Of Qud devs about how they keep the alt-right out of their game community is worth reading.
It's been a while, so maybe it's time for another update:
I've been here in the US for 7.5 months now. I still haven't set up all my furniture, lol. (But most of it!)
Otherwise, I feel like I've adjusted pretty well. I have local friends now! It's not easy to build your local social network from scratch during a pandemic, and not being able to travel "home" doesn't help. But I'm making progress.
“could everyone pls keep boosting <3 I'm almost at my goal”
"Ask someone trying to cobble together a living as an Uber driver or Instacart worker how well the power of a tech industry completely unchecked by labor power is serving them. Either we organize tech, or it will organize the rest of us to serve it."
I keep reading GPL fans bashing other licenses as if the _license_ is going to solve the problem of capitalism
Ever been poor? Apparently not. Here's what your BS license does for the poor:
ABSOLUTELY JACK SHIT
"Just put this magical set of words on your code and no one will ever steal it ever!"
Also: arguing about this is not going to solve anything. The issue is that the system is broken. More lawyers is not the solution, either. It is leveling the field to be equal.
Your license doesn't do _shit._
Richard Stallman is indefensible (CW: pedophila, sexism, ableism)
He says kids can consent to sex, has supported child pornography, has expressed extremely ableist views in general, and consistently makes sexist comments and "jokes" in person.
If you are a techbro and want receipts because you doubt this:
CW: child sexual abuse and dehumanizing ableist speech
My thesis advisor attested to this as well, back when he visited my university. The extreme sexism had people walking out of his guest lecture because it was extremely uncomfortable.
You wanna support the GNU project and the GPL still? Fine whatever that's not what this is about. Just stop pretending this guy is an infallible hero when he's said some terrible shit and call people out for idolizing this shithead, because they are forcing diversity out of the free software community.
US Pol. Voting
If your state gives you a "mail in ballot" you can almost certainly go drop it off and either a drop box or a county office at a time of your choosing.
Mask up and go drop it off as soon as you can. Avoid any possible shenanigans.
Please repeat or boost this message so folks who haven't done this before understand.
Also early voting is your friend!!
Remote work is here to stay. Writing screeds about how it "sucks" might be fun, but the more interesting conversation is about what do we do about it.
How might we use remote work to make ourselves, our communities and our society stronger?
I just gotta say, I was really weary of this trend in academia to try to do everything using AI.
I never saw why AI would be "cool".
But this talk, thanks to "explainable AI" on a topic I'm actually interested in, changed my mind. This is really cool.
Okay here’s an opinion. Markov bots should have a CW on every toot they make, that reads “output of markov bot” or similar. Because when they get boosted onto my timeline with no CW I’m left stressing out trying to work out why I don’t comprehend what this person is saying, until eventually I work out it was a bot and I wasted that energy because it was meaningless. Can y’all see why an autistic person would find text that looks like real language but doesn’t make sense a trigger and a drain of energy? And that it’s a valid position to not want to waste my time reading words recycled by an unthinking computer script even if other people find them hilarious?
Even putting “bot” or “ebooks” in the display name isn’t good enough because people do that too as a joke! But it’s more ableist than it is funny.
Network geek and researcher. Recently moved to the Bay Area. Queer feminist, bisexual, fights for social justice.