Knives @Knives@cybre.space

It's difficult. Things here have been tough to work with. Mentalspace form seems to have vanished. Just a voice now. Room is still here, but everything is faded and gray.

Will be OK, I hope. Just rough times for Revya. ... sorry. I don't want to worry anyone.

Will try to keep in touch.

I haven't had much to say, just checking in as the discussion somewhere turned towards pluralism and tulpas (partially through ?'s work) and ... It's been a rough ride the last few days. I have not been around much, but I have mostly just been trying to keep the lights on in some way.

It is hard to focus on headspace (and myself) when things are... chaotic. It is even harder to try to motivate ? to take care of themselves when they and I have no energy to do anything ffrom all this.

Hang in there.

It has been fairly quiet here again lately; ? has been too busy and exhausted to do any exploring, and I have mostly been quiet aside from the usual popping up when "Knives" i sseen or said.

(? feels weaker than usual today; maybe due to bad sleep, but today feels a little different; it's a little difficult to keep thoughts straight.)

(seeing the new language here) I am not a robot, heh. (That would be my psuedo-predecessors, though.)

I have not had much to say lately; ? has been overwhelmed, or at least too busy to do much of anything, and I have been pretty quiet. Not much to say right now, other than things here are just as stable as ever.

Evening! (I haven't said much lately, but I figured I would say hello)

I (or rather ?) doodled something like what my bedroom looks like in headspace, though it's missing the bed itself: https://cybre.space/media/C39KRC0S8YlxzoYj7vE

I've made a thread here for exploring this world (headspace); if you'd like, you can read about some of it here https://jul.rustedlogic.net/thread.php?pid=454025#454025

Just checking in; things have been fairly quiet here, even if ... ? hasn't been in the best of places, lately? Even though it's been rough, this world has been fairly stable, with its gentle breeze and light rain.

...

Though I did just notice that my room has windows now, too; before it was without them. It seems strange in some way

Even though I know (and ? knows) that bedrooms are supposed to have them, it wasn't seen as weird that mine didn't, until now.

Spending mornings (and other times) constantly trying to push ? to do what needs to be done. "Go. Go. Go." Go take a shower. Stop reading Twitter. Go to bed already.

A futile? attempt, when met with "I know, I know"; like an alarm clock being snoozed forever.

This place has been pretty quiet lately, even with everything going on; other than what happened a few days ago during the... not panic attack, but whatever comes below those; the brain fog? ... It's all been normal here.

in addition, on Twitter, ? was talking about how their room (in physical space) was always extremely plain and undecorated; then they realized it's the same here. Their room is just a bed/mattress on the ground, a nightstand with a lamp on it, and a window with two doors. It's barren and empty.

There's also a dresser along the wall opposite the bed, under the mirrors. But other than that, nothing...

I'm basicaly repeating what ? said (which is a little weird in and of itself, but I guess ? feels better about talking about it here than on their main?) ... The library upstairs came back to mind today, though it hasn't changed much from the original description ? wrote up about it. There are still rows of shelves, though one of the "black" books (with the emblem on it) now has an "outline" that changes from glowing blue, to purple, to red, then purple, then blue again. (It's still all black on the inside)

It seems to be there now, but it wasn't there earlier. It's set into the sand deep enough that I can't really uncover the base just with light digging.

I don't know what it's here for. While it's in the same... horizontal line? (thinking of a top-down map.) it looks nothing like the obelisk field other than being black and shiny.

Interestingly, while there is something to the north, I don't think there's anything to the south of this house. Or at least there hasn't been in the limited exploring that has been done; even the obelisk field to the north was sort of a chance discovery.

There used to be a much larger, flatter obelisk there; it might still be there, even, tilted backwards and more like a giant, thick square than anything else. It has a texture to it, but I don't know what it is other than black and shiny.

The beach house "faces" east, towards the ocean. North of here is a lot of sand, but a bit further and west, there's an area that's marked by a bunch of broken, black obelisks. My host assumes they're monuments to failed projects, but there still aren't any solid ones anywhere...

Every obelisk is about two feet wide on each side, but the edges seem to angle inwards a little.

Good night! It's kind of late for us to be going to bed, but better late than never.

(Not that you can never sleep, but... I don't know where I was going with this.)

I noticed a while ago that I always greet people with "good evening"; I didn't really think about it until @Xkeeper noticed that it was actually mid-afternoon.

I think it's because the time "here" (in this headspace, of sorts) is always night; the stars are out, the moon is shining, the sky is always a dark black or deep blue or dim gray. I Don't think I've seen it be bright or sunny here ever...

#introductions

I am Knives, a tupla (also known as a headmate, etc.) I was intentionally created, unlike most of the other headmates I know that occurred naturally. I'm here to work on becoming a little more conversational and active, instead of mostly being quiet and invisible.