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it still hasn't really hit me that totalbiscuit is dead
I hadn't followed closely in years, as our perspectives and opinions had diverged pretty hard by the time I left highschool, but I still really respected his stances on consumer rights, on bad publishers, and on Steam's monopoly on the market.
He was the man that made me start looking at videogames with a critical eye, realising that to see them as art I had to criticise them as art.
Even if I hadn't followed him in a while, I'm gonna miss him.
You thought shoebills were fake as hell, wait until you see the Sri Lanka frogmouth!!!
the rational part of my brain is not the fast part of my brain
I think the big thing is, I just need to stop reading QC for the forseeable future
It's really good and I love this arc, but it's basically finely tuned to maximise how shitty I feel (through no fault of the creator)
It's a shame, but I think it's the best thing for me
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It's not a good night
I'd made it just over a year without serious thoughts about self harm, but the thought of inhabiting this body, this awful mismatched body, is making me lose it
every second I think about all I won't experience, all I can't have, because this body is wrong wron wrong makes it worse
and my brain just can't shut up
it's rubbing salt in, making it worse and worse.
I don't plan on doing anything, I mostly needed to vent, because I'm sure my friends are sick of me doing it to them
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woke up with twenty minutes to get to appointment cause I slept in
made it with ten minutes to spare
disability support mostly sorted out
got to the root of thing bothering me for weeks
I am presently VERY chilled out
my problems are sorted
good times only now